A Letter to My 12 Year Old Self

Hi sweet lady,

I’m going to start by saying— it gets better.

Right now, you’ve moved for the fourth time in two years after your parents separated, got back together, and then got divorced.

You’re responsible for your 3 year old brother some times, between getting him changed when no one is home to packing his things when you switched houses during the week. Just know that because of all of that, your relationship with Luke is incredibly strong and he loves you so much.

Those zip off old navy pants you wore to school last week weren’t lame like everyone said they were. They were fucking cool, I wish they still made them.

You’ll be loved one day— unconditionally and without question. You’ll fall in love a few times with people who just aren’t right, but you’ll find your partner and it will be everything you wanted. You’ll tell him about this time in your life and he’ll hug you and hold you and tell you how sorry he is for having gone through it. You’ll tell him it’s okay because you are so strong in spite of it.

People will tell you to keep playing softball. Try vocal lessons instead. It’ll make you happier in the long run. Plus the softball girls weren’t really that nice in the end anyway.

Make mistakes. Take them in stride. They make you everything you’re supposed to be.

Don’t let anyone tell you you’re not beautiful. You’re perfect, absolutely perfect.

Those nights you spent crying alone in your room listening to Fall Out Boy because they just understood your emotions… you’ll still do that as a 23 year old. They still make music!

I love you so much and I wish I could go back in time and hug you so tight. Things are gonna get really tough, but lean on the people around you. They don’t all stick around, but they’ll help you through those times.

And remember— you are simply you. And that’s good enough. You will always be good enough.

Sincerely,

Em

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